Almost two years

Before you hit me, I would have done anything to get that ring on my finger;

to keep that ring.

To make your mother like me

To make your step-father agree with me

To find you a job

To look like I belonged in your church.

 

Before you hit me, I would have done anything to keep it together.

To forgive you for lying

To forgive you for cheating on me

To forgive you for stealing from me.

 

Because you hit me I couldn’t cry immediately.

I made you leave right away.

I waited until you were gone,

until I saw your headlights fade.

I took a picture so I’d remember it forever.

 

Because you hit me…

I closed my heart

Pretended it didn’t hurt

I doubted myself and I struggled.

 

Because you hit me,

I started my life

I proved to myself that I could do it on my own

I found a way to make myself what I should be

I re-opened my heart

I found the funny in it all

I sleep well at night.

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